After telling my friend Kim about my John Lennon experience she went out with her sister and bought for me a beautiful hand painted picture of the Beatles by a great Florida artist named Leoma Lovegrove in Matlacha Island near Cape Coral Florida.   Of  all the let downs that come with ALS, it makes me smile everytime I see this on my wall.  When I find myself in times of trouble Mother Mary comes to me speaking words of wisdom let it be.   In honor of  our young people in the Armed Forces this Memorial day, let’s ask Mother Mary for her wisdom and protection for our loved ones, and let it be.

Satnam

I have not been able to write in a long time just because ALS is a very difficult life change.  I have had numerous good therapies and energy work healings of all kind, even had distant healings from John of God in Brazil, and they have all helped in different ways.  That is the only path to healing, everything has to let go.  The problem is we don’t know, we are just not aware of the emotions we hold tight inside our guts and our hearts, our muscles and tissues and everywhere in our body.  I was  what they call a doormat all my life, to keep peace, I thought that was a good thing to do.  Now I say  no way.  If I want something I will get it, I will not let people give me  options that are not human and accept that, and be told to have gratitude for what I am given.  Bullshit!, give me what I deserve.  I will not accept crap, disrespect, disloyalty or lame brain excuses.

But I must tell you a bit about how Trager came into my life.  I first heard of it back in 1986 while attending Massage school.  If I remember correctly  it was presented by a special teacher guest, and this lady was even before CST.  I was sooooo impressed and wanted to follow through but I didn’t, time was not right.   After that presenter we had CST, Neuromuscular, Reflexology, Shiatsu, Sport Massage and  so many other modalities.  And out of school, I took Reiki, Espira, Magnified Healing, read books on Ayurveda, massaged with cassette tapes of Deepak Chopra  read extensively on the remedies of EdgarCayce, etc…etc…  So Trager was on back burner for many years.  Not long ago while meditating, the word Trager came into my consciousness, real strong.  I was in the Fort Myers area and could not find a Trager practitioner, so while there I had Lymphatic drainage therapy, QE, CST and a most wonderful healing session with a great LMT and saw a caring  Hypnotherapist.  Now I am in NW Fl, here I joined the ALS support group by phone and found a new friend who is the wife and careworker of an ALS patient.  It’s good talking to someone who understands.  She mentioned that she knew of a lady LMT close by who specialized in something called Trager.( good things come back), I had never had a session, but I always remembered my impression from massage school.  I had a session last Thursday,  and I still feel the effects,  This therapist reminded me of myself, as she touched my aching body it reminded me of the good work I did for so many people. She taught me to use my mind and breath to release tension in my joints and muscles, she led me all the way and for sure I will continue seeing her.  Thank you Dr Milton Trager for leaving us with this wonderful gift that you received.  And thank you  Marsha for being there with your Trager approach and  to all my allies, Florida LMT’s.

It came to me I feel because of my stern objection to not provide Medical Marijuana to people suffering from ALS and other  conditions law. How absurd!  How insane!  How back in the dark ages!  Come on folks, are we going to accept this?/  Not me, and so this insight came.  I listened to the songs again and could feel how well the message fits right now.  So we had elections, it passed, then it didn’t pass, next January became next July.  BTW we don’t have the gift of time.  This is just not right, so revolution happens by We The People.

Satnam

Since last May John Lennon has been sending me messages.  At first I was not sure what was happening.  Then it was more and more.  It all came in form of his songs.  As I was writing in my journal, I found myself writing down titles of songs I had heard many times but did not know the lyrics. To me it was just a Beatles song like so many people my age would remember.  But it was more than that.  The first clue was We all need a little help from our friends.  The next powerful insight came with Revolution, it drove me to look for Julian and Sean, I was learning all I could from the Lennons.  A few days later doing some hand laundry  Give Peace A Chance was felt and heard.  I mentioned this to my son who is a music artist, he didn’t say much, probably thinking that  his mother is sure crazy.  So I went about my new ALS normal self.  Later that night in the kitchen a tune just came into my head, not a title just a tune.  I didn’t even know the words but it ended with oh boy!  I later found out it was a song called In The Life.  And on and on, it did not stop.  Many many songs  came, I have it all written down but nobody cares.  I found that out.  As much as this meant to me, I wanted to shout it to the world but who listens to a 70 year old woman with ALS who lost her voice? Nobody.  So believe it or not at this point I really don’t care, it’s been important to me and that is all that counts.  My friend Kim went out to Matlacha Island near Cape Coral, Florida    when her sister visited and there she bought me a beautiful painting of the Beatles called Let it be.  I am about to hang it up, he still talks to all of us, telling me to let it be.

Satnam