I always noticed that home to me has had a different meaning  than most people.  I am posting an Edgar Cayce reading that had quite an impact on me years ago.  For over 40 years he delivered over 14,000 readings on every subject from health to reincarnation.  But this particular one struck me, it hit the true meaning of home to me.  I could not remember exactly how it went so I asked my friend Kathe if she might know it because she is a true Cayce person.  I told her I had seen it in a book written by Doctors William and Gladys McGarey called” There Will Your Heart Be Also.”  She searched and could not find it.  But she went on Amazon and sent me a new book she bought for me. I found it and here it is.

In the establishing of the home, make it as that which may be the pattern of a heavenly home.  Not as that set aside for only a place to sleep or to rest, but where not only self  but all who enter there may feel, may experience,  by the very vibrations that are set up by each in the sacredness of the home… Make thine home, thine abode, where an angel would desire to visit, where an angel would seek to be a guest

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I have been thought of as obsessive compulsive by many .  I hope this reading will explain my true self.

Satnam

 

 

 

 

 

That’s what I feel like right now, a vagabond.  A person who wanders from place to place without a home or job.  There was a big misunderstanding, I was to go to skilled nursing, today, they had a bed.  Wow, what a day, thinking all day about having courage to go through this gracefully.  No, it didn’t work, there was no bed, and they thought I was coming in for a tour.  In a strange way I was relieved!  I know that I need more care, I can certainly feel it.   I am living at my son’s house, with his 8 month pregnant wife and two younger sons.  A young ordinary family, in an ordinary house.  But ordinary houses are not set up for a disabled person.  Also a young family need to be alone and grandma also needs her space, what to do?  I didn’t feel good about going to skilled nursing but at this point I had no choice.  Not a good option for anyone, in fact, no option!  When I look at the opulence of the very rich ruling this country, the struggles of ordinary people and a Healthcare system that is failing, well what can I say except, Revolution, in a peaceful way.

 

Satnam

I felt compelled to write about inauguration on January 20th 2017, but this morning the word Introspection popped into my head.  I guess it’s because of what is going on with the Trump administration lately.  I was surprised and had to look up the word for proper understanding.  The examination or observation of one’s own mental and emotional processes.  Self analysis, self examination, soul searching.   As we go through our journey through this lifetime we all need to do some soul searching and find the reason for our motivations, are they based on me, me, me?   Or is it for the good of all?  We all reach that point during our lives, even the mightiest of all.

 

Satnam

Our biological clock is one of the most important aspect of our health,.  Just google it or look on You Tube for more information, it is very informative.  There are ways to reset your   rhythm by going out in nature and doing all the things I have loved during my life, like gardening and reading all you can about the amazing effect plants have on us and our loved ones.  Loosing your rhythm is due to stress, sleeping too much in the day missing the sun, and not having order in our life, poor nutrition and just an overall lack of routine.  Just like they say to take medicines at same time  each day so should we do good things for our health on a regular basis.  Nobody is saying listen to me or do as I do, just check it out, see for yourselves what the experts say about Circadian Rhythm.  I am fascinated with the intelligence of our bodies.  Have a wonderful day.

Satnam

Saint Jean Baptiste, a Jewish preacher who baptized Jesus in the river Jordan.   He became the patron Saint of Quebec and French speaking Canada.    It’s officially known in Quebec as  “La fete Nationale.”  a holiday celebrated annually on June 24th,  today!     Long ago a prominent French Canadian  journalist attended St Patrick’s Day celebration  in Montreal and was inspired to create such an event for the French Canadians.   And so this started, it’s like the 4th of July in the USA.  Because of my French Canadian roots and the good feeling in my gut on June 24th, it’s a very nice day.  The weather has always been good on that day from what I remember, June is a most wonderful month in Quebec.

 

Satnam

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

And so it started.  So to me, because of my roots in Montreal, it’s a good day.

Number 3 and number 4 grandsons.  Not brothers, but rather cousins,  first allies,  that completely understand and complement each other.  It’s amazing!  As their grandma I have always observed that,  but, never as much as now.  I decided on the name Dynamic Duo yesterday, I didn’t search for it.  It was just there. and I claimed it. From the dictionary dynamic means a Force that stimulates change or progress within a system.    You see I was blessed with 5 grandsons, soon to be 6.  And everyone of them bring a special quality to life.  It’s not just my grandsons, it’s all the youngsters of a new generation, they are the future leaders and we must pay attention to their needs.  The Dynamic Duo remind me of that every time they help me with the simplest things I cannot do anymore. And they are of  service to all with love in their hearts and can still go out to play!

Satnam,

We all go through that, we have stepping stones and road blocks, it’s inevitable.  It’s life, and we will continue going through changes that are not always pleasant.  I remember long ago listening to Dr Deepak Chopra, back as a new LMT.  I remember him saying ” Life is like a river that you go down in a boat.  You will bump on one side and the other and that’s ok.  The problem is when you get stuck on the banks of this river.  Then the flow of life stops, nothing happens, good or bad, you just remain in the same place, you stop growing. ” I never forgot that, it made so much sense to me.  When we get stuck we have to find a way to get rolling on the river again.  Some people prefer to make camp there and pretend to be happy. I just can’t.  Hard as it may be my girlfriend Kathe reminds me that God has a plan..  I trust that, but then it’s me.  How do you feel?  Such changes happened after the diagnosis, I had to make unpleasant decisions, quit working, sell my house at the suggestion of well meaning people.  I found myself with no money and homeless, not a good place to be.  Even more scary is the emotional adjustment I had to go through.  I still have not mastered that, don’t think I ever will.  Now I find that living at other people’s house is not for me.  After so much searching for happiness, so many classes to better my life, my sanctuary is gone and the things that are important to me are not respected by others, my independence seem to have vanished in the haze as John Lennon said in his song “Help.”  The gift of ALS is becoming aware and seeing people make the same mistake you did but they will not hear you, not until they go through their own life change.

Satnam

 

After telling my friend Kim about my John Lennon experience she went out with her sister and bought for me a beautiful hand painted picture of the Beatles by a great Florida artist named Leoma Lovegrove in Matlacha Island near Cape Coral Florida.   Of  all the let downs that come with ALS, it makes me smile everytime I see this on my wall.  When I find myself in times of trouble Mother Mary comes to me speaking words of wisdom let it be.   In honor of  our young people in the Armed Forces this Memorial day, let’s ask Mother Mary for her wisdom and protection for our loved ones, and let it be.

 

Satnam

 

I have not been able to write in a long time just because ALS is a very difficult life change.  I have had numerous good therapies and energy work healings of all kind, even had distant healings from John of God in Brazil, and they have all helped in different ways.  That is the only path to healing, everything has to let go.  The problem is we don’t know, we are just not aware of the emotions we hold tight inside our guts and our hearts, our muscles and tissues and everywhere in our body.  I was  what they call a doormat all my life, to keep peace, I thought that was a good thing to do.  Now I say  no way.  If I want something I will get it, I will not let people give me  options that are not human and accept that, and be told to have gratitude for what I am given.  Bullshit!, give me what I deserve.  I will not accept crap, disrespect, disloyalty or lame brain excuses.

But I must tell you a bit about how Trager came into my life.  I first heard of it back in 1986 while attending Massage school.  If I remember correctly  it was presented by a special teacher guest, and this lady was even before CST.  I was sooooo impressed and wanted to follow through but I didn’t, time was not right.   After that presenter we had CST, Neuromuscular, Reflexology, Shiatsu, Sport Massage and  so many other modalities.  And out of school, I took Reiki, Espira, Magnified Healing, read books on Ayurveda, massaged with cassette tapes of Deepak Chopra  read extensively on the remedies of EdgarCayce, etc…etc…  So Trager was on back burner for many years.  Not long ago while meditating, the word Trager came into my consciousness, real strong.  I was in the Fort Myers area and could not find a Trager practitioner, so while there I had Lymphatic drainage therapy, QE, CST and a most wonderful healing session with a great LMT and saw a caring  Hypnotherapist.  Now I am in NW Fl, here I joined the ALS support group by phone and found a new friend who is the wife and careworker of an ALS patient.  It’s good talking to someone who understands.  She mentioned that she knew of a lady LMT close by who specialized in something called Trager.( good things come back), I had never had a session, but I always remembered my impression from massage school.  I had a session last Thursday,  and I still feel the effects,  This therapist reminded me of myself, as she touched my aching body it reminded me of the good work I did for so many people. She taught me to use my mind and breath to release tension in my joints and muscles, she led me all the way and for sure I will continue seeing her.  Thank you Dr Milton Trager for leaving us with this wonderful gift that you received.  And thank you  Marsha for being there with your Trager approach and  to all my allies, Florida LMT’s.

It came to me I feel because of my stern objection to not provide Medical Marijuana to people suffering from ALS and other  conditions law. How absurd!  How insane!  How back in the dark ages!  Come on folks, are we going to accept this?/  Not me, and so this insight came.  I listened to the songs again and could feel how well the message fits right now.  So we had elections, it passed, then it didn’t pass, next January became next July.  BTW we don’t have the gift of time.  This is just not right, so revolution happens by We The People.

 

Satnam